A few days ago, a good friend shared her story of losing...
She lost her baby about two months ago. She delivered her baby but sadly, the baby did not survive. I knew that must be hard for her to re-told the whole story to me. But she tried :) Then I suddenly remembered the incident at the office lobby 'that' day. I was there, holding her hands while she cried before the ambulance took her to the hospital. She told me she knew 'this' is going to happen. And even though she knew the worst, she took the chance, and decided to keep her baby in her pregnancy :) Oh she's really brave, though she shattered into pieces inside. I shed a tear and she continued...
"After that day Tie, there was one person telling me something. It wasn't bothering me, but sometimes I search for that possibilities. Have I ever hurt someone's feeling, perhaps she/he couldn't forgive me? :( I know this is my destiny and the best thing for me, for us, that Allah gave such lost. But I also knew that person was probably true. Everything happens for reasons Tie. And I guess, the non-scientific reason for me was.. if only I never hurt someone else's feeling.. perhaps, only perhaps.. this won't happen to me so bad."
I took a deep breath. Questioning myself:
"Have I ever hurt someone's feeling, she/he just couldn't forgive me?"
~scheduled post. so hard to be On Line these days *sigh*~
3 comments:
warm hugs for Utie...
it's good to reflect ourselves sometimes.. but also not forget to think positive to Allah SWT..
it's hard to let go.. but whatever Allah gives will only make us stronger..
salam sayang buat temen Utie..
tetap semangat yah :)
@Sita: Ah Sita :"> trimakasiy yah *hug back* hemmm, yes I do think positive, dear. Think I've tried my very best :)
Ehiya, salam sayangnya disampaikan, makasih banyak yuaaa :) Sbenernya cerita temenku ini, bikin aku ngerasa kehilanganku belum ada apa-apanya.
My friend lost her baby, I lost my best friend. I'm sad, but I also don't know how to get her back. She just lost, out of my reach, I feel powerless but she didn't do anything even to contact me. And now that I feel losing bestfriend is harder than losing a guy to love. That's why I reflect myself to this friend's story of losing. [though she's not gone for good] Bestfriend is not someone you can easily let go (T___T)
Selain ikhlas dan harus mencoba sabar, kukembalikan semuanya pada Yang Maha Kuasa. Segala sesuatu adalah milik Allah SWT. Dan hanya kepada-Nya kita berserah diri, dan memohon ampunan atas segala kesalahan yang pernah kita lakukan, wallahualam :)
Thanks ya Sita,
Sure I'd grow stronger :)
kok aku jadi curhat begini siy. *berkaca-kaca* your comment and feedback mean so much for me ~aku yakin Allah selalu memberikan yang TerBaik, dan alhamdulillah selalu memberiku [teman] lebih banyak lagi, salah satunya adalah Sita :), jadi makasih ya Sita... *hug hug*
Semangad ;)
sama-sama Utie... *big hugs*
thanks also for being my new best friend :)
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